am a bit discouraged at the moment about this blogging thing. i think of endless topics to write about, but it's hard for me to write it out and so rarely hear from anybody. it's pathetic really, how much i depend on feedback or knowing from someone else that what i said mattered to them. it's the classic "artist's dilemma". i remember Madeleine L'Engle writing about this...that although you may create out of a naturalness of soul...meaning...that if you don't do this thing, you cannot fully be yourself...it simply must come out of you and be made manifest to the world....you still desire the resonance or an echo of some kind...the echo sounding different in each place you throw out your voice for it to bang around. i know she was writing about this in the context of rejection, particularly, her manuscript had been rejected and she was reeling from the effect of believing strongly in her story and having no one concur. it took her 10 years to get Wrinkle in Time published and when it finally did get picked up by Farrar, she won the Newberry Medal for it in 1963.
i have to know the answer to this question - for me: why does it matter if I continue to write even if no one listens or cares?
process matters...journey the point...growth celebrated...
Who up?
- Ellen
- Writer of said blog who hopes to write more! Purpose of THIS blog: kick my creativity in its respective behind. If you find it random, off-beat, slightly eccentric, then you have found ME! Welcome.
In touch with my world
Taking a good whiff of the resident conifers...yum!
3 comments:
It's important to write because you're being true to yourself. It's a spiritual exercise. It's self-validating, even if no one shows up. It's pure discipline. It's getting out in front of your eyes what's inside, even if it's just a little joke, or an observation or something. It's determining that no one can make you significant. You're significant all by yourself.
Besides, I'm always reading.
:-)
Phyllis
You have to keep putting it out there Ellen. Your words, your thoughts, your heart-felt feelings, and seemingly trivial doodles, do not just float out into a vacuous abyss and disappear. They mean something in the scheme of things. They bounce off of someone eventually and come echoing back to you. You just don't know how far off they have to go before they begin their journey home. I believe with all my heart that if you just do the work, follow your heart for your own sake, that the validation you are longing for will absolutely overwhelm you in the end. YOu will have the feedback of many others, but it will just be frosting on the cake by then. Please don't give up El. I'm always reading too.
Love
Jan
I'm reading too!
Ted
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